what
is this.
what
is going on.
where
are we.
where
have we gone.
all
i see is.
all
i wish for.
now
i dont know.
now
is no more.




i feel so lost. like everything is out of place. not just me, but everything.
i am slipping back into my old self. maybe its summer, maybe its just life.
i dont know anymore. i just feel backwards. like how im not supposed to be is how i am. there is almost nothing left of me. my whole being is turning away. where am i going? how will i get back?




cutting away
everyday
nothing left
to even say
slicing through
whatever is here
nothing else
far and near
everything
is wrong
all is bad
bleeding out
timid and sad




its a rushing feeling
its a beautiful thing
its an addicting touch
like you cant believe
i know its wrong
i know its bad
but theres nothing left
so why not be sad
i love it so much
its helps me so
but no one will get it
no one will ever know