dear you

dear you,
i have some stuff to say. it wont be pretty and you wont like it. but i have to speak what my side. so here it goes:
1. i loved you. so much so that i didnt think that it was possible.
2. i did not, however, love you as much as i once did over these last two or three months.
3. i am so unbelievably lonely without you, its crazy.
4. i miss having a boyfriend more than i miss you as my boyfriend.
5. you were my very best friend and now that im hurting, the only person i want to talk to to make me feel better is you, but i cant do that, now can i?
6. what my friends said to you on facebook is not because they were taking sides or assuming things. its because they love me and they know what was happening and they saw the side of you i was too blinded by love to see for a while. but i see it now.
7. my greatest fear in the world is that you will date that girl, you know who i mean.
8. i realized that its alright if you date her, because i will obviously date other people too.
9. you know, what. earlier today i wanted nothing more than for you to appologize and want to get back together.
10. you know what else, i dont want you anymore. i feel bad about all the great times we had and i miss that.
11. i am fine without you. i am ok. i am better. i miss you. but i dont love you anymore.
12. thank you for breaking up with me, i feel relieved and free. a little alone, sure. but not lonely.
13. I AM HAPPY without you. i didnt think i could be. but guess what, i am.
14. you are a great guy. you are an amazing guy, but i deserve someone else.
15. you deserve someone else.
16. we are better not together. you were right. thank you. really, i mean it.