think about it

what if. the worst thing you can imagine. happened. to me. to you.
what if. all the world. came crashing down. around me. around you.
what if. our lives. fell apart. because of me. because of you.

what would happen to all of us, if everything we knew, our whole way of life, just happened to die? not us. we wouldnt die. but our homes and buildings and cars just fell apart and crumbled to the ground. and we were left with all the animals and trees. and just us and nature were left here on this forsaken earth. what would we do? would we start over? what would happen?

i am leaving. forever i will be gone. not coming back. forever and ever. i will miss you so. i already do. but i have to go. so dont follow me. but dont let me leave. i miss you now. i am gone and not coming back. good bye. forever. so good bye.

sigh together

sigh. lets just all take one big sighing breath at a time. just one. no more. no less. and maybe if we hold that single breath, we will slip into a blissfully peaceful slumber, if we hold that breath long enough. and in that slumber, we will find each other. and when we find each other, once and for all, we can both finally breath, together. or maybe we will both hold our breath as one. and breath out together. and be alone for all time. because we will stop our breathing together, and we will finally be at home, with one another. together.

secrets secrets

I throw up every night.
I cut away the pain.
I slice my soul in half.
Yet it is all in vain.

do do do do doo

yeah, so i got a little old message on formspring that suggested i update my blog. so here i am, writing.

so, i realized that i say 'so' a whole lot. but. i am still gonna use it a lot, so deal with it. so. so. so!
so..
one thing i like to do is eat. but i dont like to keep the food down. i dont like to keep it in me. it feels bad. it feels heavy and nasty and just not good. i say i dont care about my weight, but in truth, i do. a lot. i think i weigh a lot. i sort of like how i look, but i think i weigh too much. so..i need to fix that. and i am trying. the only way i know how. so yeah.
i am trying to like myself. i really am. but it just doesnt work all the time.