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my head hurts
my eyes are dizzy
my throat burns
my stomach is eating itself
this is what I am
and I love it
because I can't hate something
that is killing me
when I don't want to live

i hope im not the only one to read this

maybe youre right. maybe we will never be friends. sure as hell, we will never be what we once were. but you know what? im okay with that. im happy. i know ill never love the same way again. ill be more careful. ill be reserved, ill be better at keeping me a secret. i have you to thank for making me this way. but heres the thing, I WILL LOVE AGAIN. im never going to love someone in the same innocent and niave way ever again. but i will love. i will love with a mature, healing heart. i will love with all of my soul. im capable of changing and loving. ive changed so much since us. i love it. i will never go back. and im glad. im fucking happy right now. so thank you, so much. thank you for making me who i am. thank you for helping me through my darkest days. thank you for being so great for a long time. and most of all, thank you for being not so great to me these past weeks. you are what was shaping me. now, its my turn to decide what to be. thank you, for everything. i do want to be friends, but i dont think the me that i am now and the you that you are now will ever get along. so good bye. thank you.